forgive & forget

there's just some things in life that's better to be left unsaid and better to be chosen as one of those things you wanted to be branded as listed under your 'selective amnesia' alibi...

i visited someone whom i haven't seen for years. Someone who made me feel extremely uncomfortable at a young age. Wherein i felt that i'm worthless as a trash... a stinking one...

i cant forget that scenario. i pretended to be numb, as if lifeless, just to avoid that 'big deal' thing to happen. not just for myself as well as for that 'someone'

if i spilled that incident to other people, im sure they would try to confront that 'someone', but i chose to remain silent. atleast im at peace, and i deeply felt it was the best thing to do

well, i sort of revealed that particular 'damn thing' that happened to me to a friend who underwent the almost same situation... but i guess mine as more tragic than hers... i just told her some side details just to tell her she also did the right thing as she avoided the same situation i chose to fight with

for years i havent seen that 'someone', and so for years i kept that terrible secret of mine. there were times that i reminisce the emotions i felt, to make me remember not to trust anyone. ANYONE.

and now, as i left the establishment, moments flashed back again. but as i walk, i was able to fight the anger i felt before, and i just told myself its already just 'something' in the past.


....and the best thing to do is to FORGIVE AND FORGET...