rant! rant! rant!

hmmm…

Everything that bothers me right now is all self-inflicted… or so I think.

RANT 1

I had just read a blog entry of a friend (mind you, i have lotsa friends, keep guessing =p) and i dunno if what I’m feeling right now is quite odd, but i really think i know who’s the main ’subject’ of that blog. Yeah, I’m the one assuming now.
 
Well, despite of the gazillion percent of impossibility, i just cant stop thinking why i really feel that way…

RANT 2 

There really is something going on, and i dunno how to handle it this time… i’m losing grip. I can’t help but to lose patience.

Doesn’t seem to have the urge to do the talking and confronting, barely feel the -you know- , and i think (not feel) IM SORT OF GETTING USED TO IT. it’s not my fault if this fails anyways. i’ve done my part.

…care to chat anyone??


RANT 3

Recently, i talked to my uncle, but that less than a minute conversation really pricked my innocence. 
Well, OT, i wanted to start the serious college life this time. i want to do things the way i planned way back in highschool, and how it really should be.

With or without those things/persons i have been with these last 3 sems i’ve been studying with.

RANT 4

Everytime I go home I always keep on saying to myself that ‘this is not what my family is supposed to be’

I'm feeling so low when i hear my father curse at my brothers, or to just everything/anything that happens, or that my brothers are growing like those pesky children in our place . 

I know my dad’s tired and a bit hopeless but then again, there’s always room for changes, right? and i want to initiate those one by one, blow by blow, inch by inch. it’s hard to say i can, but i will, cause i know i want to.


RANT 5 
I have lotsa things in mind that i wanna do this sembreak, but then its just like a ‘wishlist’
time’s running out, and i haven’t done any of those successfully so far .


-THINKING TIME EXPIRED-