Back to reality...

It's been a week of unlimited rest and filled with a lot of "I-don't-care-if-I'm-not-productive" days.

The supposedly bereavement phase became a "Kelangan-ko-mag-unwind" excuse due to this stressful lifestyle I now have and apparently, na-burnout rin naman pala talaga ako.

I was able to escape (at least for a while) from reality.

For the past couple of weeks I've been dreaded with lots of obligation and never ending thoughts that requires my serious thinking as it affects me one way or another... or possibly will in the future.

Before, I thought that reasoning "Burnout" from a mere asking of the reason why someone (specially call canter reps) is filing his/her resignation was b*llshit. Now, as I've gone through the same stage, I just realized that it actually exists- and it is a hypothetically valid reason.

Out of curiosity I even researched that word, and I was quite amazed by the fact that it is normal on an adult life. Well, normal in the sense that it's a common case, and that people are just vulnerable to getting tired. As we say in Filipino...

"Tao lang din naman ako, nagkakamali't napapagod din."

Anyways, here I am now, just woke up from a very... hmm... normal dream. And when I say normal, it usually connotes that whatever people are thinking while they were awake (or worrying for that matter) would be the subject of their dream. Hah! Human nature.

Other factors that depicts I'm living the normal way again is that whenever I go to the comfort room, I always leave something behind. LOL. Digging further, it's either I take a bath (leaving gray water and eliminated body dirt etc.), or respond to the call of nature or... I vomit. I dunno, It's as if I'm bulimic of some sort.

Few hours before my shift, I felt a bit unease. It really felt odd, it's as if I was a bit scared. Well maybe yes, and good thing I was able to erase the scare off my system just in time. So there, in just a couple of minutes... HELLO FAITH! WELCOME BACK TO REALITY!