Q & A.

Okay, before I start this off, as early as now I'm disclaiming that this is purely freehand, so might as well just skip off anything that might make your eyebrows twitch a bit higher.

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Anyways, here goes:

So how have you been lately?

Fine. Been through a lot of ups and downs in just a couple of days.

Why?

Well, pressure, I guess? Been traveling here and there to fulfill my FABULA duties. But it's been so rewarding as I get to know more my cousins and family. I've been this maalagang ate for a few days and been this dependable panganay sa magpipinsan. Well, that was my high point.

Low point is that I'm having second thoughts as to going back to school. Kayanin ko nga kaya? We'll see. With this at least I'll know if I really am matured already, and that is by proving to everyone that I can balance my time, money and effort, and juggle them altogether with work, studies, family, friends, and... meron pa ba? (-_-)

What constantly bothered me is, well, as you all may have known by now, this guy whom I am in love with. (Whew, kung makabalandra ng feelings walang keme eh no.. well, that's just how I am when in love, sorry naman) We're in this roller coaster ride lately.

So, you're inlove, again?

Yup, again. It's basically not something new, but it actually is when it comes to... say, my level of maturity towards it? I dunno, I've changed- a lot. I might've told this already to Jerick, but this one ...completely a turntable.

How come?

He unintentionally made me learn how to wait, I mean, to not rush things and all. He made me realize that we can simply be indifferent at times. Knowing how paranoid I am, t'was quite a big help learning how to not care at all at what others might think about me.

Are you guys like, just dating?

If lunch dates would count, I'd say yes. But recently we seldom eat out together, and I guess it just so happen that we 're just not fond of being the talk of the town (In this case, talk of the floor). Though when I could I still try to at least come to work early, or he stays a bit longer for my lunchbreak.


How come IT is still not yet official?

Well, I honestly don't think about this much. As long as we do know we have each other, I'm already fine with that. I'm cool with the "exclusively" special friends thingy, just as long as we're not being pressured by each other on what we are.

We just have bigger priorities as of the moment, so I think we're better off this way... for now. (And i've a lot of adjusting that I need to master anyways, so we're taking our time on this)


Any serious problems so far?

 
Hmm, on my side, I guess the only issue I can hold against him is that I've always been the driver. Nuff said.


Can you say that he's the one?

Not yet. Maybe because I've been holding back. I just don't wanna spoil everything by making things one-sided. I think we're more of just going with the flow, not rushing things.

Maybe one day when we both realize that we can take this to the next level, and by going on with it, I'll be able to answer this question much better.