Give and take?

"That's what you call giving without asking for anything in return..."
Asking or just expecting for something to happen?

Hmmm.
Neither.

When I look back a few days ago, I remember I've already given up.

I told a few friends that I'm already raising the white flag, hands down - surrendering in this one-sided battle.

But just after almost an hour, I changed my mind. After a couple chat and text message convos with some friends, I realized that its nothing compared to having a real fight with someone close to your heart.

Oh yeah, I've been to worse fights, and those include much painful things being said and done, and this - this is not even close.


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I've been trying so hard to hold on, God knows how far. I've been like, saving THIS, this mere relationship that I dunno why it seemed to suddenly went on a halt.

I kept on denying the fact that this has been  one-sided.

I kept on telling myself that I want this, and I'm willing to wait on hold, 'cause I want this to be resolved.

I've been trying to feel fine not taking it to the greater heights, even if I know deep inside I want to- cause that's just how I am. I live. I love. I laugh.

I've been lying to myself that I'm doing fine, that it's okay that we stay this way, less... less.

I kept my stance and made it through it all.

Just in a snap, I'm willing to move on.

But the real question is... 

WILL I?